I spent most of my weekend in the ER after having chest pains Friday night. I really only thought it was well I’m not sure what I thought but it was a pain like no other. I thought I was having a heart attack but I’m too young for a heart attack, evidently I’m not. Evidently my heart is/could be getting weaker since my BMI is now 13%!

I’m not even sure what direction to go anymore. I’m trying to pcs which makes anything else I’m trying to deal with a second priority. I’m tired. I’m stressed and it’s a work night. If only I knew exactly a year ago today that going to Marvin Garden was going to have such an impact on my life that it would cause detrimental consequences. That one choice from all my other choice was going to be the one to change my life dramatically, I would have chosen differently.

I know if something even when that something is me, doesn’t make drastic changes or choices, I probably won’t be alive next Christmas. My heart is going to simply give out from working so hard and being so weak.