It’s funny how so much can change. I’m looking forward to 2018. I’m happy to be leaving but most of all I’m happy.

I would be even happier with an explanation, but I realize the ex is a sociopath narcissist who feeds on fuel from those he wears his mask in front of. Like he did with me although only a short time.

I truly do believe he is not right and a sexual deviant. EVERYTHING was about sex, orgies and him.

We were on the phone because he rented a camp and was fishing. First who rents a camp alone? Although he probably wasn’t.

He was fishing and telling me about all the lake houses and how he wondered if inside were “open minded” people having orgies??

Even then I thought it was peculiar. Only The ex could take something trivial and be turned on by it.

The ex-told me he brought those two teenage girls to the fair etc. They were the daughters of his friend. Or a daughter and her friend.

What 40-year-old man hangs out with teen girls unless he’s a sexual predator? The ex the child molester does.

Am I being so harsh about the ex? Jumping to conclusions? Maybe The ex was really Just close to these young girls?

I consulted a family member indirectly not mentioning the ex. That person stated since they are parents of teen girls, that they would not let anyone take their teens girls somewhere. That it was off.

Second clue I think the ex Is a child molester. Or at very least probably gets off on child porn? Besides he’s fucked in his head.

We had dinner with my daughter in law who is barely 20 and I made a comment how she didn’t appear to have had a breast augmentation and he agreed. I joked that he was “checking her out” which the ex-laughed and said yes.

Third reason why I think he is prob a child molester. Let’s not forget the whole “daddy daughter” role playing, which fine I got it. That doesn’t make you a child molester nor is it even wrong. What crosses the line? The ex-saying to me as he’s F@&@@$ me “you’re going to make your mom and sisters jealous.”

What in the holy fuck????

Lastly The ex was convinced I was abused by my own father. I love my dad more than anything and he was a great man so I’m not even going to elaborate on this. In fact, I almost hesitated writing it because of the disrespect The ex-saying such a thing even had.

Oh wait. Not lastly. Let’s not forget the ex-saying MULTIPLE times how “incest” in families is normal or there’s really nothing wrong!

What in the holy fuck right? I brushed it off. Love truly makes us tolerant.

When I write conversations about the ex it seems so unreal. How did I even let the ex into my life??

I met the mom and sister of the ex, and they appear “normal”, so the incest and young girl thing doesn’t add up. Or who knows maybe that’s why he’s so close to the sister?

I can truthfully admit and say if I had a daughter while I was dating the ex I may not be comfortable leaving him alone with her. It truly has taken me a long time to come to terms with that statement.

None of this makes sense when the ex-wanted to fuck a transgendered woman.

Well technically for arguments sake the ex-never said he wanted too. The conversation was the ex-asking me if I would fuck a trans woman because “really it’s a man.”

What the holy fuck? Obviously NO was that answer. By no means do I have anything against the LBGBQ, but I am comfortable in my sexuality to stay that I am straight. I am attracted to males that portray themselves as males.

I can’t make this shit up if I tried. I honestly wish it wouldn’t have ended how it did. Yes, I’m glad it ended but I wish it was just a normal breakup so we could have just parted ways and been done.

But not instead it happened how it did, and I must find my own reason for why he acted how he did, answer MY questions and figure out the truth.

So, the blogs continue.